THREE years! Can you believe it?!?! Three years ago today, I moved to New York City. It does feel like three years to me, however, what surprises me is that I really didn’t think that I’d get to the three year mark and still not be ready to move back to Texas.
There are a few questions I get asked a lot by friends and family…. “how much longer will you be in New York?” or “are you going to stay there forever?” or, as my friend Brooke has exclaimed more than once, “You said you’d only be there a year!” That last one isn’t quite true…I said I HAD to stay a year if I hated it. I didn’t hate it. My response lately to these questions has been that I really have no idea. I still feel that this is where I am meant to be at this time in my life.
I began to experience a renewed love for NYC throughout this past fall. Not that I ever fell out of love with this place, but I absolutely LOVE it again, like I did when I moved here…maybe even more. I may not love my tiny, expensive apartment, or crowded subways, or carrying heavy grocery bags for blocks, or rats on the train tracks, or piles of garbage on the sidewalks, or passing many homeless people sleeping on the streets. I may not have friends here like I had in Dallas and my family may not be here. My face may hurt when I have to walk outside a few blocks in 9 degree weather. I may worry that my nephews will forget who I am between visits. But, I still love this city in a way I’m not sure I’ve ever loved anything in my life, with the exception of close friends and family. I care for this city and its people…I feel like I am willing to give up parts of myself for it, if that is what I am called to do. And in the times when NYC may not seem that comfortable or desirable, I believe I am experiencing His gracious JOY as a result of being obedient to stay here. That alone is enough to remain content here.
You may or may not have listened to the song I currently have on the blog…turn up your volume!!! I love this song and truly believe what it says is true for NYC “For greater things are yet to come and greater things are still to be done in this city”. I feel like God called me to be a part of these great things….he spent years preparing my heart and building up a love for NYC and then dropped a job in my lap that seemed easy and convenient just when I was getting serious about moving here. And when that didn’t work out, He had another job waiting for me! I have no doubt that He has a purpose for me here. But, after all this time, I do not feel like I’m living that purpose out – I’m not even sure what my place IS in His plans for this city. But, I do feel strongly that He wants me to take part, for His glory and for my good.
My pastor spoke on this very topic not long ago and there are a few key points I took away from the sermon:
- HOW God got me here may be different than why He keeps me here. He got me here by wooing me with the glitz & glam….great restaurants, Broadway shows, celebrities, the fast paced life, etc…. He also got me here by using the job at The Journey (that clearly was not His long term plan). So, why is He keeping me here? Certainly not just to have another celeb sighting, but I’m not sure why.
- God rarely calls you AWAY from a place, but may call you TO a place. I definitely felt called to come here and haven’t yet felt called to leave or to go to another place.
- In a city where only 5% of the population are Christian, it will take a large number of Christians permanently planting their roots here to really make an impact on the people.
Friends, I know that many of you who read my blog are great Prayer Warriors! Maybe God intends for you to be a part of the great things He has planned for NYC as well…maybe not by moving here, but by praying for those of us who have been called to do so! I have some specific requests that I would love for you to pray with me / on behalf of me. Even if you just pray for them right now as you briefly read them…He will hear them!
- Pray for the people of NYC. That God would be glorified to them. That they would know His love, peace, hope, and joy.
- Pray for the Christians in NYC. That they would walk boldly according to God’s calling. That they would speak boldly about their Savior to others. That they would love the people in NYC in a way they have never been loved before. That Christians would deny their own comforts so that they can give more to the people here.
- Pray for my church…that our presence in this city would be felt. That people will later say that NYC was a better place because our church was here and made a difference.
- Pray for our pastor, JR….that God would guide Him as he leads us in this mission to reach the people of NYC.
- That Christians in the city would unite. That we would pray together, hold each other accountable, serve the people of this city together, and love one another very well.
- Pray for me! That God’s purpose would be clearly revealed to me in His timing. That I would be obedient and self-sacrificing to anything / anyplace He calls me to. Pray that I would glorify God in my work place and that I wouldn’t be afraid to speak His name when it comes up naturally.
- Pray that as I wait to see what that purpose may be, I would spend more time reading His word and praying than I do watching TV or playing on the internet, so that when I am called to stand boldly for Him, I will recognize it and be prepared to follow where He leads.
Thank you – I am blessed by your prayers!! And, as a side note, as I ask for prayer for myself, I want you to know that I love to pray for YOU! I am blessed to call most of you who read this blog my friends! I am, honestly, already praying for many of you in some way or another, but please know that if you have something going on that I don’t know about that you’d like prayer for, please email me!! No matter how big or small, I’d love to pray for you! Or, put it in the comments and you’ll probably end up with more prayers than just mine!